Featured on BBC Radio Kent’s Upload on the 26th September 2022.
I do want to talk.
I’ve even got things to say.
Well, who hasn’t?
But I like to think there’s ideas
or at least opinions
lodged in my gut
tangled in a lifetime
of speech therapists
end of term school reports
and annual review meetings
cultivating the quiet gene
watering it by the bullet point
tightening its roots around
my tongue.
I can chat down my friends
like you’ve never seen
encasing them in the steel bars
of hip-hop history, Beatles trivia
centralist politics
trainer wish lists and
Beyonce worship.
Beyond their safe space
it’s another story.
A rubbish one with no arc
just a frustrating flat line
as constant as my heartbeat
put under the spotlight of
simple enquiries and courtesy
that the desire to answer just right,
exactly as I want, feel and believe
robs of any response at all.
You wouldn’t believe my interest.
I am completely and utterly
so presently in the room
that I’m inside your head obsessing
over what it wants to hear from
any contribution I make.
By the time anything’s crafted
time’s up. It’s too late.
Like Rihanna’s ninth studio album.
People’s respect for Novak Djokovic.
Compassionate Conservatism.
The new paywalled Black Star album.
Social media regulation.
I am as committed as I am quiet.
If we were all talking aloud
fast thinking on our feet
it’d be more confusing than the NFL
waiting for The Weeknd half-time show
with as many clear takeaways as
a near forty-year-old rap fan finds
in a Drill mixtape he’s as open to liking
as he is engineered to just not get.
Our nature is our nature.
An introvert’s presence is
a Kyrgios under-arm serve
Megan Thee Stallion twerk
Johnson lie, excuse, apology
and a cabinet minister’s self-interest.
Nature can not be denied or overcome.
It needs respecting and working with
as best as can be.












