Coffee Shop Guy

Featured on BBC Radio Kent’s Upload on the 11th October 2022.

Electric smiles
meets ad land trade
in a plywood corner shop
where gossip’s made.

Over oat milk daydreams
he loops stage show lines
scrolling down messages
that keep him alive.

He does well for hearts
but less so in tips,
waiting on agent calls
and lucky coin flips.

The routine workers
envy his auto-charm
oblivious to the comfort
they hold in their palm.

Donut At Dawn

Featured on BBC Radio Kent’s Upload on the 4th October 2022.

A chorus of squawks descended
outside patio doors at sunrise
alerting the lightest sleeper
the day was about to break.

Grazing the brick and lawn
three seagulls shrieking loud
bombarded the doughy catch
a fourth found on the cliffs.

The kettle clicked and steamed
to butter knife on toast scratches
and clinks of cupboard searches
for a jar of something sweet.

The seabirds won that morning,
beak deep in a donut’s jam
pattering atop the treasure
of someone’s day trip fail.

Root Causes

Featured on BBC Radio Kent’s Upload on the 26th September 2022.

I do want to talk.
I’ve even got things to say.
Well, who hasn’t?
But I like to think there’s ideas
or at least opinions
lodged in my gut
tangled in a lifetime
of speech therapists
end of term school reports
and annual review meetings
cultivating the quiet gene
watering it by the bullet point
tightening its roots around
my tongue.

I can chat down my friends
like you’ve never seen
encasing them in the steel bars
of hip-hop history, Beatles trivia
centralist politics
trainer wish lists and
Beyonce worship.

Beyond their safe space
it’s another story.

A rubbish one with no arc
just a frustrating flat line
as constant as my heartbeat
put under the spotlight of
simple enquiries and courtesy
that the desire to answer just right,
exactly as I want, feel and believe
robs of any response at all.

You wouldn’t believe my interest.

I am completely and utterly
so presently in the room
that I’m inside your head obsessing
over what it wants to hear from
any contribution I make.

By the time anything’s crafted
time’s up. It’s too late.

Like Rihanna’s ninth studio album.

People’s respect for Novak Djokovic.

Compassionate Conservatism.

The new paywalled Black Star album.

Social media regulation.

I am as committed as I am quiet.

If we were all talking aloud
fast thinking on our feet
it’d be more confusing than the NFL
waiting for The Weeknd half-time show
with as many clear takeaways as
a near forty-year-old rap fan finds
in a Drill mixtape he’s as open to liking
as he is engineered to just not get.

Our nature is our nature.

An introvert’s presence is
a Kyrgios under-arm serve
Megan Thee Stallion twerk
Johnson lie, excuse, apology
and a cabinet minister’s self-interest.

Nature can not be denied or overcome.

It needs respecting and working with

as best as can be.

K A

Too right he enters the stage
to a regal band of brass and pomp
cheers, whistles and applause
weaving through hands held high
welcoming the best to do it
his tracksuit outwitting our
t-shirt weather, hoodies all summer
fan references before it begins.

From there, Class Of Deja reigns.

Every word of every bar as on point
as the CD versions under our beds
retired to memory box stacks of the
songs and energies that made us
triggering nods and shake alongs
to classic verse and recent chorus
the new ones as strong or stronger
advertising hard work and growth.

Quality shines as daylight falls.

Thousands heaped in favourites
rapping along to every other line
spill out home sweet home.

Doodles In The Sand

Like unwelcome spinach
screwed up on the edge of
hash browns and white toast
the seaweed hugs pebble
sandcastles long-sunken
and craters a day trip deep
whilst the fading spiky scent
of salted and Sarson’d chips
lures eager pre-alarm gulls
as loud as rest’s calling
before the trains of tinnies
sweep up and pour out
the next fresh and fried
squads of penny arcaders
leather skin tanners
coffee shop loungers
and their cyclical points
literally toward the horizon
they remark stops and turns
their cassette tapes gazing out
into rescaling wave and sky.

House Of Cane

A see through balloon
of orange paper petals
bounces to Bea’s kicks.

Juliet spreads Lego
rocking Santa garms
glancing at the guest.

Super Mum, a natural,
scratch cooks lunch
with effortless ease.

Dad works daily tasks;
bins, shuttles, socks,
big hugs and baths.

Apollo arches his back
to the sight of bird feet
grazing glittering snow.

Logs on the fire crackle
as off limits Smarties
fill cheeky, joyful palms.

Stories encourage snores
welcoming a Cava pop
and rest into the night.

Jam at The Lock

Earlier this year the lovely We Are Raya kindly asked me to write something for their cool new zine, celebrating London summer. Their illustration of Camden quickly stirred up tons of formative memories. The zine is out now, with £1 from each sale supporting the vital work of Mind.

at the usual spot

t-rex smiles stretch
as wide as fields roll
trees hiding the end
of sky’s clear promise
as scatterings crunch
crisps and tin cans
atop hills of long grass
fist pumps and beats

our lasagne of bicycle
pins down an old mat
of the long week’s tales
wounds drifted away
by the gentle breeze
creaking through woods
of joggers and dogs
walking pebbled paths

the calm and vital dusk
a brief but rich daydream
dims the weekend bliss
of colour and space
we soak to its final charge
that powers us through
each necessary plan
until the next clear stretch

– for Joe

Vicky Park

Our wheels sliced through
the post-summer chill
swerving pups and hounds
new household plants
swinging totes of wines
and Royal Inn strolls.

Bladers tracking cones
and Pagoda smoochers
made snoozy, winding jaunts
Approach Road’s stretch
tempting a quick about-turn
of crisp trees tiring into fall.

With each keen press
outdoor heaters toasted
glass-long tales and cheer
of all-dayer tents and hugs
Sunday jogs, regretful looks
and misjudged trilby hats.

A ripped bust stared on.

Cursive loops and lines
chalked up on the wall
skim-read and hoovered up
fuelled all the cherished detail
only those ways ever stir.

Chronicle Of Covid

Funny how I’ve spent most of lockdown dropping off the kids.

Outside number 30 and 43 to be precise.

No, this isn’t a post-COVID 19 IVF black market.

“Why’s it gotta be a black market. All markets matter!”

tweets the contrary prick who’s no longer my friend.

No, not IVF, but culture. Sourdough culture.

Door 30 left his out the fridge for too long.

Number 43 (the shielders) ruined theirs with heat.

Those two are an interesting lot.

I’ve never met them but have been their lifeline.

A crate of Stella in the first week.

A whole basket of Haribo Tangtastic the next.

I grinned and bared the ’essential items only’ checkout scorn.

Smug is the man with a neighbour’s diabetes diagnosis up his sleeve.

Oh, how the thank you messages flowed.

‘Thank you so much, you super star.’

‘You are the best! Thank you!’

‘We are going to throw you a night of coke and hookers!’

Genuine promise? Perhaps not, but the next one was.

‘If our adult AirBnB business survives (it’s a dungeon)

we’ll give you great rates on a stay. You’re gay and clean.

The straight guests leave the place rotton.’

Then the messages gradually slowed down.

Assume I distanced myself from then on, do you?

No, anyone can do what they want and besides,

it was a great excuse to get some fresh air.

The reason the errands became less frequent?

They were not actually even shielding!

I’d messaged them in aisle three one day.

Message read ticks? Yes. A reply? No.

‘I’ve now left’ avoided any late response and return.

Then there we all were.

Me marching back my beers and chocolate and pizza.

Them, stood outside the entrance, all masked up,

looking the other way like they didn’t see me or my Tesco bag swinging.

I could be wrong. It could have been some other couple.

Something terrible may have ended my errands to the shops for them.

But only a dungeon master wears boots like those.

Bob Dylan’s Rough and Rowdy Ways – Review

Having binged on much Bob Dylan throughout my university years, I’ve always explored each new release when they’ve come along, quickly buying into the hype of broadsheets that they’re each important, significant projects – despite ‘the voice’ and how much of them have of late, become covers and tributes to both mainstream and obscure artists of days long past. 

That this new album is of all new material – putting aside the routine traits and/or accusations of the man’s borrowings of history – felt particularly paramount this time around and quickly had me morphing back into my 20s something student self, calling up the lyrics online to read through and dissect as I listen, assuming this to be another vital dispatch of rhyme and reason from some unearthly, unrivalled force. 

Whether that’s what I’d find or not, I was willing and ready to buy into and crank up any hyperbole, perhaps in part because we’re of a time where the concept of culturally significant music events of scale in Britain, merely amounts to a Take That concert via video conference for customers of a price-comparison website and its cuddly toy incentives.

Would I have taken such a studious approach to indulging in the album were the world not burning in the flames of populism, oppression and inequality around me? Perhaps not, but the idea of tuning into a now 79 year old’s much experienced and informed perspectives seemed essential, at a time of increasingly regular horror at the discoveries of close friends and colleagues on Twitter, proclaiming that ‘black lives matter, yeah. But so do ALL lives.’ Almighty, trusted old Bard, give me something to believe in, trust and care for like you did all those years ago!

On album opener ‘I Contain Multitudes’, the real treat for me is in an artist turning a mirror on himself and describing what he sees, more so than the observations he makes. It immediately sets the mood for what’s to come, like a set of rules on a pub or bar’s door (I’m really missing nightlife during lockdown) as to what the deal is before you enter. Your one hour and ten minute stay will be a peaceful, reflective, moody and considered sitting, with lyrics and conversation across a brilliant, yet often decisively understated backdrop of music.

As quickly as you’ve just been spooned statements laying out who the album’s narrator is and what he’s made of, you’re quickly told on ‘False Prophet’ to hold your horses because what you think he is, ain’t it. As I quickly daydreamed into my once or twice per decade wonder as to who the man really is and why it does or doesn’t matter, I was snapped out of it by ‘My Own Version Of You’, a tip toeing walk through an imaginative tale where for the first time in the album’s three openers, the focus is largely on the external.

Following the proclamations, contradictions and intents before it, ‘I’ve Made Up My Mind To Give Myself To You’ stands as a straightforward yet beautiful and moving piece that even the stoniest of hearts would be pleased to be feeling and saying of a romance in their later years. Dylanphiles may come to spend miles of Reddit threads discussing how this is actually talking of the man’s career and work in music rather than love. Whatever the answer, which we’ll never know, it works charmingly.

After the slow, reflective and intriguing ‘Black Rider’, the foot-tapping ‘Goodbye Jimmy Reed’ introduces a welcome increase in tempo as its respectful nod to the American blues musician and songwriter reinforces the sense that the overall album’s both teaching you something and taking you on a trip. The hymn-like ‘Mother of Muses’ takes the pace down once more, packing in references from Elvis, all the way back to Greek mythology along its way. If Dylan were to ever ‘do a Zoom’, his bookshelf background would surely win top prize.

Historical references continue on ‘Crossing The Rubicon’ whilst, bundled up in what on the surface might seem to be a commercial for an island in the Straits of Florida,  talk of death, immortality and shadows after dark make up ‘Key West’. This feels closely aligned to the ideas and reflections of ‘Not Dark Yet’ from the 1997 album ‘Time Out Of Mind’. That album was hailed by fans and critics alike as both an artistic comeback and a contemplative career finale – which eight defiant studio albums later you’d be forgiven for labelling this one too, knowing full well you’ll quite possibly be proven wrong.

The album closes on ‘Murder Most Foul’ which at just short of seventeen minutes, comes packed with as many reflections, statements and historical references as the rest of the album put together. Here and throughout all the songs before it, Dylan is deeply in his own unique lane, sometimes talking deeply from the heart, other times giving history lessons and always holding the audience in a state of deep, inquisitive listening. 

As the power and presence of strategically shallow political slogans and rhetoric pulls people of all tribes further into their reductive echo chambers and as life passes fleetingly by despite being under a pandemic’s pause, this album is a much welcomed opportunity and exercise in immersing one’s self in the search and exploration of meaning, whether that’s of the author’s intent or the listener’s individual response.

2020 Vision

I see the privilege of my shopping cart anxiety,

texting Rob to weigh up limited edition colourways.

I see how much cash goes down the drain

along with high percentage, highly priced dregs.

I see the importance of personal responsibility,

choosing the sofa over an illicit meet up in the park.

I see how much my Joe’s and Chris’ and Cat’s mean

to the normal, everyday functioning of my wellbeing.

I see however many hours you spend on Mario Kart,

your skills are nothing to a CPU favouring chance.

As red shells are projected through banana skin fields

I barely see my coffee table over an ever-growing gut.

I see on the morning news even the loudest provocateur

talking more sense than ministers in his headlights.

I see the value in having acknowledged your neighbours

when you’re all out of flour for your next sour dough loaf.

I see the glimmering sparks of a chemical reaction

at the utterance of a polite hello or smiles between strangers.

It’s all so clear now, our kindness and similarities

dancing it out in a long, stretched queue for junk.

I see we aren’t all quite looping a level playing field

in the rough, tired face of someone sat by the door.

I see the skeletons of trees hatch little buds of life

that grow green and shine by the warming, sunny day.

I see how nature’s got one up on all its guests,

its drama-less blue skies and sweet morning birdsong

gracing even the most built up, concrete paths.

I see a morning routine of showers and shaves

can provide focus through this great unknown

and it’s okay too to feel low and lost and longing.

I see if it will be a good day in the just woken greetings

of my partner I’ll laugh together with all day long

need to pick up or be picked up by from another dip.

I see the blessing of these three daily routes

in the empty backdrop of another Zoom call

not without merit but surely a clockwise crank

of a friend’s silence once ‘End Call’ is clicked.

I see my presumptions, my ignorance,

my self-centredness and selfishness

stewing in the stillness of another Netflix binge.

I see myself reduced to my early twenties self,

coasting through university seminars high,

feasting on books and record’s there’s space for

and how beneath my older face and greyer hair

away from adulthood and office pantomime detail

we’ve all still an essence that’s just well hid.

I see the word count, the minute hand,

the sun inching through the curtains,

the fridge magnets and taunting to-do’s,

the files, saves, posts and futile amends,

the dishwasher needing another emptying

and more thoughts rising to beguile the day.

On Archbishop Advice

Three drafts later
however long the stanza
I’m still falling short
whist birds sing in the day.

I’d all my points lined up
for our first beer in months
now fading in significance
and urgency to say.

Real contact dwindled,
scrolls filled in the blanks,
differences surprised,
memes would dismay.

Despite all the silence
clicks on hide and block
didn’t cease the accounts
of many a soiree.

Now stuck in lockdown
in place of clearing air
I picture folds of laugher
on our Chiswick getaway.

May we crease up again
unable to hold our pints
playing Paul and John or
The Revenant with a jay.